I dunno. Maybe this is just another phase in my blogging evolution but lately I’ve been inredibly tempted to … End the way I blog.

Not to stop blogging, because I’m not sure I ever could, but certainly to change it.

One of the questions I ask myself is “am I actually contributing anything” to this thing we call the blogosphere? Code samples? Nope. Applications? None. Really good articles and original content? Laughably, no.

So what’s the point? Sure, personal publishing is, by definition personal but that isn’t enough for me.

I’ve been a writer for the last decade. Press releases, articles, book contributions, MSDN pieces, white papers, reports… I’ve done just about everything a writer can do besides publishing a book on poetry (which I’ve considered…).

Over the last week I’ve come to enjoy blogging less, enjoyed the exposure less and really wanted to get back to playing around with this thing we call the Internet more. Or not. I’m also dissillusioned with IT in general.

When half my energy in any given discussion with another IT person is spent defending something that I have no stake in… I have to wonder what the point of it all is. Has IT changed the world? Sure. For the better? Ehhh…

Oh, and, no, the solution isn’t to just take a break from blogging, so please don’t offer that with the best of intentions. This is bigger, deeper, wider.

After a decade online, I feel like I haven’t really improved anyone’s life, and my life certainly hasn’t been improved. I still basically live at the low end of the spectrum, still don’t make much and still feel largely unsatisfied. And while blogging won’t change that, it hasn’t really helped much either.

I still don’t believe I’ll ever stop blogging, but maybe I’ll really only do it for me from now on, closing it off to the public.

Or not. Maybe someone can shed some perspective for me. Of the 2000 people that visit here every day, everytime I’ve had a personal crisis several have stepped up to give me perspective. I appreciate it, and I’m asking for a bit once again, if you have some left over.

Thanks.