To be honest, I don’t feel much different than yesterday.

The encouragement has been fantastic, but hasn’t given me a real sense of why I blog, at least the way I do.

I want to be clear, that I don’t ever believe I’ll give up on blogging.

At first I thought yesterday was just a bad day. I’m having a good day today and still feel the same way.

Then I thought maybe it was because of my job. To be honest, this might hold more weight. My last job was great because it gave me a lot to blog about. My current job is just maintaining a huge network. Great responsibility, but not very exciting and not a lot of brainpower required.

My final thought was maybe I was just disillusioned with blogging in general as Trevor Cook pointed out:

But I do think one of the limitations on blogging is what’s in it for minor leaguers over the long-term. It’s great to get up to speed and to feel the thrill of it all. But if you’re not A-list and getting all the publicity and the major league hit rankings, well why bother.

I’ve also appreciated the dozen or so emails I’ve received privately.

I love the blogosphere. I love blogging. I love the sense of community.

Maybe I’m just reaching a certain level of visibility now and I’m not enjoying the responsibility that goes with it.

I really don’t know.

I’ll keep trying to sort it out, and likely keep blogging about it. Hang in there, I keep telling myself. Whatever “it” is will come to light so I can deal with it.

Thanks again everyone.